When Death Knocks at Your Door

When Death Knocks at Your

DooR

I’ve always wondered what I would do if I found out I was going to die. I’ve considered several scenarios, and they all lead back to the same place-the 5 stages of grief. Unfortunately, after once majoring in psychology (a sad mistake) I had to do a 6-8 page paper on how Death affects people, and in what ways people deal with the five stages of grief. Now, I would like to think that I could handle it with dignity, but then again… I’m human. Dignity is not my forte… So…fuck. 

      So, after realizing this, I started to think…”How can I prepare for this, so I don’t go out like a spineless little bitch?” AAAAaaaannnddd. I still don’t know. I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s natural for a human to plead to a deity to save its life when it is dying. And although I believe in a God, it’s not necessarily a specific god. So, most people out there are thinking one of two things: “You don’t believe in God?!?” or “There is no God!” Honestly, what side of the fence you prefer to ride…doesn’t matter too much, because in the end, you could die and then find out there is nothing…or, you could end up in some sort of afterlife. Who knows?

      Again, it comes to a question of semantics and where you stand on the spiritual plane-or lack thereof, as well as faith. And faith is a bitch. To me, having faith in God to keep your soul when you die, is like hoping an invisible condom can keep a blender from slicing your dick to pieces. Maybe it can…maybe it can’t you don’t know, but you’re afraid to test it, since you can’t know. 

      So… do I pray to god, or ask the worms to be gentle as they eat my corpse? The hell if I know. I keep asking myself, do you think you should become “religious” again or at least start looking back into a form of deeper spirituality of some sort. I haven’t been able to decide yet, and I may not ever before I die. Such is the curse of being raised highly Christian, yet being smart enough to realize that not all of it can be true, or if it is, then you have to fit it to your own designs, as explanations. I would really like to find some like-minded people who would like to discuss this topic. If any of you out there have considered the same thing, drop a comment and let me know how you guys feel about it.